Pain

Pain: According to the Websters dictionary, pain is defined as a basic bodily sensation induced by a noxious stimulus, received by naked nerve endings, characterized by physical discomfort, such as pricking, throbbing, or aching.

The definition sounds excruciating, but pain is more than just a physical sensation. Pain is something that most women with Endometriosis live with on a daily basis. Pain is what wakes us up at night from our deepest sleep. It is the sensation that collapses a women to her knees before the lord praying for relief.

I spent a lot of time over the past two years thinking about the pain which has taken over my body, yet today as I stress my arm to type these words, I smile. I do not smile at the idea that my arms hurt to move or that my legs are weak today, I smile at the idea that pain is a sensation. It is not the absence of the nerves which only a few months ago we were told are dying off slowly, it is just pain. I can not control it and I can not deny it, but today, I feel it.

I know that my arms are still working. I know that my muscles are getting stronger, and I know that I can overcome this too. Today, pain is my reminder that I am still here, I still have things to do on this planet, and most importantly I still have feelings. Today I propose a toast to the pain, may we not fear it but feel it at least one time in our existence.